Im so glad to be yours

Lyin here together
Soakin in the tub
Our toes turnin wrinkley
Windows all steamed up
I'm just kinda hangin
Your readin from your book
It dont matter what we're doin
It all feels so good

Don't you get it baby
I'm so glad to be yours
Oh pretty baby
I don't need nothin more
This is all I need

I know we're outta money
Put that long road aside
But I just look at you beside me
And man I've got it all

Don't you get it baby
I'm so glad to be yours
Oh pretty baby
I don't need nothin more
This is all I need
And ooh it's so right so right
It's so right so right
Oh don't you get it baby

I'm so glad to be yours
Oh pretty baby
I don't need nothin more
This is all I need

Baby I'm so glad to be yours
Oh pretty baby I don't need nothin more
This is all I need
And ooh it's so right so right
It's so right so right
You know it's so right it's so right it's so right

the way i love you..

One Third

Even if I love you until it hurts, 1/3 of it won't reach
My true feelings are just spinning on air
My heart can't even say "I love you"
On the long, sleepless nights
The feelings I send to you whisper "that is love"
Talking endlessly until you're moved to tears, your trembling heartbeat
Changes into a slight fever mingled with a sigh
Give me a smile and shiny days, by your smile
I can withstand the cold of a frozen night
Even if my love reaches the breaking point, 1/3 of it won't reach
My true feelings are just spinning on air
My heart can't even say "I love you"
Like rain in the middle of summer
Your shining smile ends the drought
Give me a smile and shiny days, don't clear up so quickly!
Because we can overcome any wall that stands in our way
Whoever you love, these images will reach them, right?
Don't say you can find them, your words are dancing in space
The further apart you go, the more it hurts the person you love
The more I chase them
The more my heart feels the cruel distance
Give me a smile and shiny days
Give me a smile and nice days
If only we could meet in an embrace...
Whoever you love, these feelings will reach them, right?
If only you had said so in your dreams
Even if my love reaches the breaking point, 1/3 of it won't reach
My true feelings are just spinning on air
My heart can't even say "I love you"

let it be me

i wanna say i love you...let it be the last words you'll hear from me for this day and let it be the first word you'll hear when you wake up...let me be the one who'll spend the rest of your life with...let me be the one to wake you up everyday...let me be the one to kiss your pain away...let me be the one to make you smile...let me be the one to to hold you tight...let me be the one..the only one..your only one...

A picture...

Happy... contented... peaceful...
loved... loving... cared for and caring...

Look into her eyes and you'll see her heart.
Her smile reaches her eyes as she looks at the man she loves...

YOU.

She is calmed by your voice... she is comforted by your words...
She has her heart on her sleeve... i love you.

Conversations on Silence

j: funny how silence speaks between us
j: i can hear you..wanting me beside you...
j: i dont need to say a word..
j: look into my eyes and you'll see...
j: how much i wanted to be with you.
j: silence..
j: i love looking at you..
j: and words has no place for us...to say to each other how we feel
j: and what we yearn for
c: there are so many words left unspoken between us
c: silence would engulf it...
c: but i fear not having you hear what i have to say
c: you can see it in my eyes
c: my lips..
c: you can feel it my body
c: I need not tell you i love you sometimes
c: because you can hear it in silence
c: our silence
c: your eyes
c: your gaze
c: the way you would crunch you face as you read this text
c: the way you would smile ever so slightly
c: the way you would laugh
c: the way you would bite your lip
c: i need no words... darling
c: i only need to see you
c: and i can feel your love from thousand of miles away
c: i can hear you breathe
c: i can hear you yawn...
c: i can hear your heartbeat
c: because you heart is intertwined with mine
c: i can feel you... hear you and see you...
c: and yet no words are spoken
c: silence. that's what we have
c: and yet a thousand words have been spoken in more ways than one/
c: a thousand words... to simply say 3
c: i love you

Calculating...

2 and a half months ... 10 weeks... 69 days... 1656 hours... 99, 360 minutes... 5,691,600 seconds.... no matter how i put it, it still brings you 8502 miles away from me.

Its another week that will come to pass... I anticipate... I wait... I wish. Again I remind myself this will make us stronger. This will make us last. And so I close my eyes for the Nth time since that night you left and prayed. I prayed for strength... patience and faith. That things are working out according to His plan. I open my eyes and my heart swells... with relief, with love and with gratefulness. I have been blessed. I have all that i need in my life. Its not perfect but its a good life. I have you.

Darling, I cannot promise i will always be this strong... but i will try. As long as I have your love. Keep your heart with mine and we can go through our life with strength, faith and love.

Again I give thanks to Him. Thank You.

sadness behind the smile

i've been lookin at this picture for hours now...i just cant sleep feeling the sadness in your eyes. how you tried to hide it. i hope im not just over reacting on this... why are you so sad baby... is there something that i didnt say... you dont have to hide anything hon... im here always for you...im so worried now... worried bout "my only one" ... my love...

4924800

57 days away from you, your smile and you touch...

can still hear your voice... like i was still talking to you...

... a recorded conversation playin..

im looking at you, eye to eye...

... a picture of you on my screen...

feelings that wont go away, will never go away...

a disease that can only be cured my your presence...

i miss you...so much...

words can never express how much i long for you...

i love you...so much...

57 days since the last time i saw you....

not a single second passed that i didnt think of you...
not a single second passed that i didnt crave for you....
not a single second passed that i didnt miss you...

till then my love... my only one... the only one for me...

wait for me.

I love you because....

• of the way you call my name
• of the way you look at me.
• of how it feels being in your arms
• of how perfectly your hand fits mine
• of how we could talk for hours about anything and everything
  
• of the way you touch me.
• of the way your forehead crinkles with concern when i have a splitting headache
• of how you would look out for me when I'm sick
• of how you say you love me
• of how our dreams mesh well together
• of how you love my family
• of how much you love your family
• of the way you laugh
  
• of the way you cry
• of how you show me you miss me by sending me emails at work
• of the way you would whisper in my ear
• no matter how busy you are, you take the time to give me a call just to let me know you love me
• of the little notes you write for me to show me you care.
• you would ride home with me just to make sure i get home safe.
• of the way we would have fun by doing even the silliest things (pancakes anyone?)
  
• of the way you would carry me
• of the way you take care of me when i'm drunk
• you would sing to me at any random moment and its so sweet
• you would argue with me and still do it so sweetly...
  
• spending an entire weekend with you is always so imperfectly perfect
• teasing you is so great
• you respect me
• you listen to me
• you would crinkle your nose a lot when we would take pictures together
• you would try to look funny just to make me laugh
• you would labor over my pc without sleep just to have it done
• of how good it feels watching movies with you
• of how wonderful and peaceful it is praying with you
• of how my dreams seems to be complete when i have you in them
• of the songs you would send me that shows me how you felt at the moment
• of how you smell
• of your warmth
• of your good heart no matter how much you deny it
• of how you worry about me
• of how you care about people
• of how we share just about everything---"conjugal everything?"
• of how you walk
• of how you would show your dimples that i find so disarming
• of the sweet text messages you would send me
• of the long blogs you would write for me whether or not i ask you to send me "something sweet"
• of how you would listen to music and block everything else around you
• of the concentrated look on your face when your working on something really important
• the mellowness of how you speak to me
  
• of how perfectly we fit.. in every way...
• of how your voice soothes me when everything else is in chaos
• memories of you always make me smile
• you trust me
• you would hurry home from work just so we could chat
• you would ask me what i'm wearing each and every day
• you would check up on your siblings
  
• you would make sure your family's safe and okay
• you would give me a foot massage at the end of the day
• i love you...

Darling, I'm loving you... every second... every minute... every hour and everyday of my life.... Each day... i find more and more reasons to love you...

You have my heart...

my only one.

I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you You are my only, my only one.

I miss your lips... and everything else attached to them. ~ Claire Colburn, Elizabethtown

down to one...

"There are millions of people out there. But in the end, it all comes down to one. I still panic sometimes, forget to breathe. But i know there's something beautiful in all my imperfections. A beauty in which he held out for me to see, a strength that can never be taken away." ~ Nicole, Crazy Beautiful

You loved me, wholly... gently... passionately... you loved me. The person that i am. You see my imperfections through eyes that bore deep into my soul. You see me as me. Your heart is bound to mine. As mine is bound to yours...

Yes, it all comes down to one. It all comes down to you.

How long until i....

81 days 8 hours 14 mins 15seconds....

and still counting... i'll be counting until the second you're back in my arms...counting until i feel you close to me again... counting until i can lay my hand on yours and never let go..
I'll be waiting... til the day i belong to you... entirely.. with no question... to see my name as part of yours... to feel my fingers laced with yours... to have your ring on my finger and my ring on yours... to kiss you for the first time... as your wife...
i'll be wating.

I belong to you now my darling... it doesnt matter whether in name or in paper.. whether in the eyes of millions of people or one person.. in my heart i belong to you. nothing and no one can change that.

I love you. simply. wholly. imperfectly. i love you.

Lips of an angel

"...it's really good to hear your voice saying my name... it sounds so sweet..coming from the lips of an angel, hearing those words it makes me weak...and I never wanna say goodbye..."


...never..not now..not now that i have you..

.:thanks givin' whats missin?

its the 23 of the month of november mahal, they were celebrating the eve of thanks giving...empty street..couples walking on the streets can easily be identified...in the air there’s the spirit of thanks giving...everyone big or small, young and old...greet with smile..happy thanksgiving..this is my first thanks giving... I woke up late this morning..i wanna stay in bed for a little bit longer...then I realized that usually this time..i am exchanging thoughts and I love yous thru email or a java chat room...and then her smile gives me that extra push to stand up and stay up..i have my laptop on the floor where I left it the other night as I wait for her messages to come and I slept with her face on the screen...on my mind...I decided last night to leave it where its at so that I can check right away if there’s any message for me the following day which is this morning.

eager.pulled the laptop and moved to the dining room so I can have a better and a more spacious place for me to move freely, I have my laptop, my external hdds, headset, camera...everything on top of the dining table... and she never failed my waiting..i received a message as soon as I log in to my email...made me smile...every once in a while ill do something like, cooking, getting a drink, exercise...things to keep me busy while I wait for the next message...we exchange messages thru email..and so did I remembered that I can contact her thru a 1800 number which I eagerly tried since I have the service phone for the day. success! I get to talk to her for a couple of minutes...its better than nothing at all...her voice is so soft and it has a soothing effect on me...

sadness.the whole morning, I felt a certain heaviness in my heart. its for a friend who just lost someone dear. its different coz he’s not coming back this time. hell be with HIM for good. its sad knowing that she is a good person and she had gone though so many things...and the only thing we can offer her is our support..in any ways possible...

hangin.we need to cut the line...her manager just arrived...I don’t want her to be on a not so good situation so we decided to use email instead. I really cant wait to talk to her. I found myself wishing for the nth time for the day to end and for her to get home safely so I can talk to her..hear her voice...we have a dinner party tonight and we have a limited time to spend together on the internet phone...

still. she got home safe and it really excite me to hear her voice...though I’m feeling something weird..something not right...something ..just something ... the moment she logged in to her chat app, there’s the feeling once more..the feeling of wanting to be near her..to be beside her... though the internet connection is giving us a problem its not enough to tame the excitement I’m feeling ...as soon as she opened the camera and speak.. I knew it... she’s still stucked to the sadness she came from this morning...I understand clearly... I know how she feels... and I don’t want her to feel so sad as if there’s no tomorrow...it hurts to know how you wanted to comfort her and let her feel that everything will be fine...that your still there and yet she still so tied up to what happened to a colleague... I just cant fake it...it made me so sad and made me wish that it was me instead...maybe shell be much better if it was me...its hurts me more to see her like that...she managed to pull it back, though through her eyes and her presence I can still sense that she cant just put that thought on the side... we manage to talk and smile...

dinner. we have to move...we have to move fast cause its almost 7 pm and we need to pack up and head to the dinner party. I have to say goodbye to her..and be with the boys for a company party..i really wanted to stay and be with her but this is a social obligation that I have to shoulder...

thanksgiving. there’s a lot of food and there’s this famous thanksgiving turkey. drinks. appetizer. everyone in formal attire.everything was set...and it went well. it was a great celebration but could have been better if she was there. everything there reminds me of her. her moves. how she would dress for such occasion.. how she would smile to everyone..GOD..everything reminds me of her..and most of the time I found myself silenced by the situation because everything reminds there leads me to the realization that shes note there...and I miss her so much.

plans. the crew said something bout christmas party that made me think. most of them will be back and join their family this christmas..ill be here for christmas...and new year... they were talking bout celebrating the christmas party...it made me sad...cause were not gonna celebrate it together...and most probably shell attend the party...not that i dont want her to, in fact i do...shell be all dressed up...she'll be extra gorgeous..therell be food and wine..therell be music and presentation... dance floor... other men will have a dance with her....all of them but me...ahhhh... this is too much... the momory of us dancing together in the pool crossed my mind...again I found myself gasping for air...I miss her like hell...I’m going crazy..thinking bout her...

ahhhh..now I’m in the living room and I’m still thinking of her...so much...while she sleeps I wanna whisper to her...how much I love her and miss her...I'm so missing her...so much...

baby...as you sleep. ill be in your dreams...and if you did not find me there..be at ease...im on the other side of your dream..battling nightmares and bad thoughts from interfering your sound sleep...

i love you baby... so much...

thanks givin' whats missin?... its you...the one i love so much...

.:thoughts before slumber:.

I wish you were here.
I wish i could hold your hand.
I wish i could lie and rest in your arms.

I wish.

Through the twilight of sadness i find myself wishing.
Wishing to be enfolded in arms of comfort.
Wishing to be surrounded by your love and strength.

I wish for you to feel my love.
I wish for you to know the depths of my emotions as i look into your eyes.
I wish for you to continue your dreams and have me in it.

They say we have to dream while we're awake
For if we dream when we sleep, when we wake up there is still nothing there.
In my wakeful moments i have you in my dreams.

And when i have you here. In my arms. I know...
All my dreams can come true.
I love you.

Confession Part 2

to my loving wife...

its 1:19 am, in the dining area I found myself...thinking of how I should tell you this...I...I have a confession..my love...and as you said to me...so am I telling you that "among anyone else in my life...you... as my wife should be the first to know."

I was a fool to believe that things won’t change, but time and space changed everything...everything between you and me... right now im on the other side of the planet, where when darkness covers your night... the sun is on its peak where im at... i never expected this...not even after 26 years of my life... i didn't expected something like this to happen... and yes being away from you made me realize a thing.

I love you..not..

I don’t want to hurt you honey, but sometimes... things will never turn out as planned... I am a fool to make you believe that I love you...and that I care for you... im a fool to let you believe that all those things that im telling you are true...when its not...

honestly... I lied.... im sorry for not telling you all these when it was just starting...when I felt something different ... there’s no one to blame but me....

its me... I lied about loving you...I have this idea of love and loving but what I feel for you grew into something even more...I don’t love you hon...coz it’s an understatement to tell you I love you... and even if I say I love you so much...that what I feel is ten folds of those I love yous...its not even close...

don't believe me next time, when I say I love you... cause its not even close to what I feel for you... don’t believe me that I care for you... cause taking a bullet for is not enough... to show you how much I do...

I love you so much...and if by telling you every day that I love you...you’ll have an idea of how much I do...then I think we should start life together...cause you’ll be spending a lifetime hearing me out....hearing those words... I love you.. my wife. my friend.my partner...and yes..my fantasy and reality in one...

"Ad infinitum.Aeternus."

Reality and Fantasy in One

I have a confession to make. I've fallen in love with someone. Among anyone else in my life I feel my husband should be the first to know. I didn't expect it. I didn't think it would happen so soon. Being away from you made me realize one thing:

I have fallen in love.

He's my fantasy. He makes me feel so many things. He makes me hot like no one else can. He makes me crave... he makes me long for him... he makes me yearn. I have found myself falling inlove with my lover. And so again... i have a confession to make:

I have fallen in love.

I've found him. And I want you to know. Please understand one thing. I never thought i'd fall for him so soon... But i have. And before you find out from anyone else... I would like to tell you myself....

I have fallen in love.

With you. My husband. My lover. My reality and fantasy in one.

the nearness of you...

another day.. another night ... darkness is still roaming outside the street, but somewhere, light is finding its way to brighten up ones day...

its 2am again, and im sitting here in front of this machine tip topping on the keyboard but doesnt reallly have anything in mind... tip top tip top tip...

had a long day yesterday, but it never felt that long towards the end of it as i anticipate to see a face... a smile...a voice...i almost lost my heart in the drivers seat, its beating so fast...seems like its skippin, jumpin...excited...like its racing against time...cant be late for a single sec... it feels like a child seeing the light of the day for the first time...


ahhhhh...its always like this, cause its that time of the day that i get to see you...feel you..and hear your voice...

a tickling feeling inside me knowing that youll be there... a feeling of joy and contentment knowing that ive seen someone that i can be happy with.cast everything down..cast everything i have...ive seen someone that made me realized what i wanted...its gonna be a long and challenging journey but i know well make it thru somehow...the situation and the time may not perfect but we found ourselves loving each other perfectly...

hon, you never failed to excite me...never failed to put a smile in my face..never failed to make melove you more...never failed to make me crave for you more...to miss you more...

...youll never fail to complete me...i can see better now, i can see the picture of us together...holding hands, facing all the challenges, but always with a smile on our face...knowing that no matter what you will be there..and i will be there for you...

you maybe far from me physicaly but other than that aspect...your not really that far...in fact...youre just here..inside me...loving me...caring for me...looking over me...

i never thought i'll fall for you this hard...this deep... i was and im still overwhelmed by that feeling...but im happy and i dont have any regrets on loving you this much...

the only thing that ill be regretting was if i didnt told you "i love you" or if i failed to show you how much i love you...

i love you so much hon...and ill be back home soon...into your arms...

"It's not the pale moon that excites me That thrills and delights me, It isn't your sweet conversation That brings this sensation, It's just the nearness of you... When you're in my arms and I feel you so close to me All my wildest dreams come true I need no soft lights to enchant me If you'll only grant me the right To hold you ever so tight And to feel in the night the nearness of you.."

Stick with me...

Holding hands... lying beside you... hearing your voice... seeing your smile.

Each day marks another day closer to you. Every passing hour, minute, second... gives a feeling of anticipation of what is to come.

I have memories of you in my mind. I have pictures of you to keep me company. I have your voice to comfort me in trying times. I have your words to keep me smiling. I have you.

I miss you. more than you know.

Stick with me honey... Let us tread the same path together...

"Anything less than mad, passionate extraordinary love is a waste of my time. There are too many mediocre things in life and love shouldn't be one of them." ~ Frankie, Dream for An Insomniac

You are my mad, passionate, extraordinary love. The love I never thought I'd be lucky enough to have.. I have you baby... I still can't believe it sometimes but I have you. I've found my dreams in you. I've found my partner. I've found my future.

So stick with me baby... Let's have a crazy, perfect life together. :)

Missing You... Part 2

Its 2am and Ill be sleeping soon..."dont stay up too late ok? Rest well baby.."..those were the last words i receive on my phone from this girls...on the other side of the globe...who, at this moment might be sleeping..deeply...the message was sitting there for 4 hours now...and i still find myself reading it...

i have my laptop near my bed...clicking..typing...not really doing anything...im just watching the images..passing by the display...slide show...of a familiar face...."dont stay up late"...its already late..."rest well baby"...thats the complete opposite of what i am right now...

i cant sleep...and im restless...someones on my mind...and just the mere picture of her smile keeps me up. just cant get enough of her face..the picture of her smile...the happiness that can only be discovered in her eyes...those lips that i always daydream about...skin that makes me tremble and shiver inside...the love that i dont wanna miss not even for a single second..

images on the laptop...of the lady on the other side of this planet...the nearest thing i have about her...my heart is on the other side of this earth...with the lady that i long for...the lady i love so much...the lady that i cannot live without... the owner of my heart and soul...

"...i miss you"...(whisper)..."i miss you so much ... and my heart wont rest..until i have you back in my arms again".

...throwing these words on her pictures...

...oh god, im missing her so bad... and i cant stop feeling what im feeling...cause its like an air that keeps me alive...

im missing her...im missing the girls on the other side of the sphere...and that girl is you..

i miss you hon...i love you so much..that words it self is not enough to tell you how much i do love you...

...you are always remember hon...no one can keep you away from me...wait for me...ill be back home..

Missing You...

I woke up having you on my mind. I watched your video again... and my heart once again swelled with love. I missed you... so much this morning. I miss you more now.

I haven't been able to tell you all the words i wanted to say earlier on the phone... I havent' been able to take out that lump on my throat the entire time. There was so much I wanted to tell you.. So much I wanted to share.. but somehow. I didn't feel like then was the right time..

I went to bed with a heavy heart... and i realized there was really no wrong time to tell someone how much you love them. I realized if i only blurted it out earlier... if only i said it then perhaps we would have slept better. Perhaps we wouldn't feel burdened by words unsaid.

I love you my darling. I love you so much. I couldnt bear the thought of losing you.

I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to build a family with you. I wanna grow old with you. I wanna be able to go through my life knowing i have you by my side. I wanna be able to take care of you, bear your children and be with you through thick and thin. I wanna lay your head on my shoulder when your tired, have my arms around you in slumber, open my eyes and see you there. I wanna make love to you and only you for the rest of my life.

I want a life with you. Only you. Always you.

These are the words i wanted to tell you. These are the things i've been thinking of as i shed tears of yearning. I have all these in my heart. And yet i didn't simply say it.

I'm sorry my darling. For being so quiet... for keeping all these to myself. Your love overwhelms me and leaves me speechless. Your heart leaves my heart yearning for you. I've come to a point where losing you is no longer an option. I don't want to lose you. Not when i've found you after years of searching...

Baby, keep holding my hand... keep loving me... i ask of nothing else but that.

A home with you...

34 sqm studio area
1 bedroom
1 toilet and bath
kitchen
dining area
utility room
living area
storage area

imagining a home with you. :)

Sigh..answered..

why sigh? well get there hon... i never craved and longed to be with someone this bad...never felt the drive to be married to another individual this strong... never longed for anyone like hell..and never loved someone this mad..

i wanna be with you..forever..
wanna be close to you...
wanna feel you..
wanna love you like no other...

Sigh.

unfinished

"There is no remedy for love but to love more and on marriage you don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without."

be continued....

For My Wifey

You dont know who much i love you my darling..but let me say it to you..everyday..every morning...and every waking hours of my life...

I love you so much my wife, my one and only, Clarence Enriquez Y Agoncillo

your hubby,
Jhasfer Harris Enriquez

For My Husband

I love you Jhasfer Harris Enriquez.

your wife,

Clarence Agoncillo Enriquez

to you my honey.

miles... thousands of miles separates us. its been almost a month since the day you left. And i find myself missing you as much as the first night. you ask if i'd ever be tired of waiting... if I'd ever be tired of your love.... i say one thing: your love keeps me strong. i feel it from thousands of miles away. I feel its intensity as if you're here... holding my hand.

I know we will always fear the thought of losing each other. Dreams, situations, uncertainties will come... i admit my weakness. YOU. you make me weak as you make me strong. The thought of losing you... the thought of no longer being in the comfort of your love leaves me weak.

As i go through all these feelings while you are away, i know you have been going through similar emotions. Circumstances may seem different, but we yearn for the same thing... that our love be steadfast through this distance. I am still left awed at the connection we have. How we seem to be able to relate to each other in ways we've never experienced with anyone else.

I've never feared losing anyone as much as i feared losing you. I've never allowed myself to be touched so deeply until i found you.. I've never enjoyed dreaming my dreams with anyone else until i started dreaming with you.

you tell me.. i belong to you... that you won't allow anyone else to have me. that you can't imagine being with anyone else but me. I say this: YES. I belong to you like no one else could. you have my heart. you've had it since the night we shared a ride to makati. i may have tried to deny it but denying something so right and meant to be is foolish. I don't want to be that.

And so i tell you this. I will be here... waiting. I will be here... loving you from thousands of miles away. I'll be here... as your honey, your bunshin, your baby, your darling, your mahal, your wifey.

When you come back to me, I'll be all those things and more. I love you.

just a blink away

the day was about to end...woke up, prepared for work, fixed the bed sheets...and off i go. nothing really special..nothing really extraordinary...worked..read some emails. checked the mailbox. lunch time...later ...ill be driving home..then maybe rest.

boring... really?!@#$*

not at all..it may be that plain outside...but there's so many thing's happening in my head...in my heart...i am longing and wanting to be alone with someone...THE ONLY ONE...she'll be waiting..and ill be coming back to her ...soon...minutes, hours, days, months..will pass..but she will never be off my mind...not a single nano second...no matter what you see outside..its not always the real thing...there are joys in simple things...

everytime i close my eyes, i can see myself with her...just a blink away..every beat of my heart will be heard soon, by the only person its beating for...every breath will be shared with the one i've longed, for so long...

baby, honey...i'll be home soon...in your arms...and you'll be resting in my chest, my arms and shoulders will carry you, protect you...you'll be with me soon..

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"you are my lovelight, this I know. and I'll never let you go you . my all, you're heart, part of me.once I was lost and now I'm found. then you turned my world around when I need you. I call your name. this feeling's so deep inside of me. such a tender fantasy . you're the one I'm living for . you are my sunlight and my rain. and time could never change. what we share forever more. i never knew love like this before now I'm lonely never more since you came into my life"
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to be in love

"To be truly in Love is to know that you will forever be truly happy in your heart."

"Who knows when meeting shall ever be. It might be for years or It might be forever. Let us then take a lump of clay, Wet it, pat it, And make an image of you And an image of me. Then smash them, crash them, And, with a little water, Knead them together. And out of the clay we'll remake An image of you, and an image of me. Thus in my clay, there's a little of you, And in your clay, there's a little of me. And nothing will ever set us apart. Living, we'll be forever in each other's heart, And dead, we'll be buried together" - Madame Kuan

The certainty of YOU

once again i feel it
this glowing feeling of knowing its you
this knowledge that i have finally found you
my heart skips a beat
i drown myself in this awesome feeling
of love and being loved

its the certainty of you.
i have found you at last.
I've been lost my whole life and now...
I'm caught..
In the depths of your arms

I've never felt this certain
I've never felt this blessed
I've never felt this kind of love my whole life
untilthe love i found in you.

so in love with you

" everytime our eyes meet...this feeling inside me is almost more than i can take baby. when you touch me i can feel how much you love and it just blows me away.. ive never been this close to anyone or anything, i can hear your thoughts, i can see your dreams.... the smell of your skin. the taste of your kiss, the way you whisper in the dark... your hair all around me...baby you surround me and touch every place in my heart... oh it feels like the first time. everytime i wanna spend the whole nite in your eyes.

i dont know how you do what you do... im so in love with you. it just keeps gettin better... i wanna spend the rest of my life, with you by my side forever. and every lil thing that you do, baby im amazed by you. "

... just cant find the words to tell you how i feel. missin' you so much..

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solace

sol‧ace 
1. comfort in sorrow, misfortune, or trouble; alleviation of distress or discomfort.
2. source of comfort: somebody or something that provides comfort at a time of sadness, grief, or disappointment
3. to comfort, console, or cheer (a person, oneself, the heart, etc.).
4. to alleviate or relieve (sorrow, distress, etc.).
5. relief from emotional distress: comfort at a time of sadness, grief, or disappointment

...woke up this morning in your smile. an image of you in my mind...my laptop show our photos together...the closest thing to you that i have here...

..the memories are fresh, running in the back of my mind, as if it was yesterday. the reality is were thousand of miles away but that wont keep me away from you..

i was tamed...its in your arms that i found comfort, in your lips i found passion and intimacy, in your eyes that ifound my soul, in your heart that i found my home...

solace...can be define by just one word...YOU... ill be home soon hon..in your arms..in your lips..in your heart..

Thousands of miles

Nothing separates us.
not time.
not distance.
not anyone.

Bound.
bound by memories.
bound by the future.
bound by a love so intense.

Thoughts.
Bring you to me.
Dreams.
Brings us together.

Belief.
Does what no distance can do.
We are together.
We yearn, we cherish, we wait.

Its just a matter of time.
I'll be yours for life.

what is it in the air?

its cold outside, leaves are falling,drizzles and the temp is 40 degrees F...

ironic because i feel real hot...hotness that comes from within... warmth becuase of your memories..of your touch..your kiss...your arms around me..enough to let me bare the coldness..

giddy? not drunk...
alcohol..i did take some...
but its not the reason nor the source of this burning sensation inside me....

just the thought of you..
just the image of you in my mind...
can ease up the coldness...

how can this little things makes me feel warm?..what is it in the air?..nahh...its not the air..


...its your love...

...its your spirit...

...here protecting me...keeping me safe...

GIDDY

Messages.
Short phone calls as you sing.
A picture.
The thought of your smile.

The sound of your voice.
Dimples on your cheeks.
Pictures of you and me.
Music.

Emails in the middle of the day.
A million endearments from your lips.
An approved testimonial.
4:00am.

YOU.

"Somewhere in the middle of all this i fell in love with you. I'm saying i love you. Don't say we're not right for each other because the way i see it we may not be right for anyone else. It can't be any harder to stay together, than it was the stay apart. I need you." ~ Cutting Edge

You are my dream.
You are my reality.
You have my heart.
My mind.
My body.

You are my certainty.
You are my fantasy.
You are my present.
My future.
My eternity.

So stay with me
Hold my hand
And i will hold your heart in my palm...
I will hold you in my arms...

And I will never let go.

i never thought

"I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."

i never thought that i would fall this hard...this fast...so certain...sore...

i never thought that it was you that im looking for all my life...

i never thought ill be so in love with you...until i kissed you that rainy moday morning..

...and from then on, i never thought that ill be livin' my life without you...cause no matter what ,no matter where i am...theres a part of me in you..and theres a part of you in me... always...

"Love, David, Love! Do you love her? I mean does the thought of her the smell of her the touch of her make you quiver? When shes away from you do you wish she were in your arms making love to you? I mean when you see her after not seeing her for an entire day does she make everything ok?" ~Dream for An Insomniac

thoughts of you..
the scent of you...
your touch...
your voice...

you. make. me . quiver.
you. make. me. shake.

coming home to you makes everything ok..
being in your arms... hearig your heartbeat....
feeling you breathe...

when i see you again... you wont make everything ok...
you would make everything SO MUCH BETTER.

...let it be...

..let my love be your blanket as you sleep... let all the happy memories protect you from all the bad dreams that may come...let my lips seal your lips..and let my voice be the last thing that you hear before you close your eyes...

...let me be the one my love...to hold you and be with you...to love you and care for you....to kiss you good night and kiss you good morning...

...just let me be the one...

...your only one.

Memories

Today is full of memories of you...

Showers in the 'morning'... thoughts of you makes me want to stay a little bit longer...

PC stores.... i walked for an hour around the mall checking out gadgets, webcams, O2s, PDAs... mind you, i would normally check shoes, blouses, skirts and the like...;P

Eastwood... walks in the area reminded me of the last night you were here...

Mexicali... our favorite 'indulge me' resto where you bought me quesadillas before you left...

A dress in People are People... an outfit I pointed out to you asking, 'baby, would you want me to wear this?'
Music... melody with words that constantly reminds me that no matter how busy we may be... we aren't forgotten...

Its 4am baby... can't wait to get home... someday... I'll be going home to you... and fill my world with more memories... this time , OF US.

i miss you...

I miss the sound of your voice...
I miss your gentle touch...
I miss the way you call me baby, bunshin,mahalko...
I miss how your eyes would stare with an intensity so unnerving it makes me melt...

I miss waking up with your arms around me...
I miss your warm breath on my nape...
I miss the sound of my name as it passes through your lips...
I miss the scent of you...

I miss laughing with you...
I miss talking to you about everything and nothing...
I miss lying with you... spent and sated... happy... undeniably happy...
I miss you.

loving and so much more

"...i dont really know what love is..but if it is longing for someones touch...caring for her so much..wanting to be with her all the time...faith ..hope...sacrifice...and a thousand other words that others used to descibe it...then..i love you...i love you and so much more...i love you, that all the words combined, all the words Webster can come up with...can never describe how much... i love you..."

missin'

aching just by the mere thought of you...wanting to be there...hoping that one day ill be waking with you beside me...feeling your warm embrace...you kisses... your skin...

What I want most...

"What I want most in the world is to find the one person who makes the world seem beautiful."

My world is beautiful.

All that i need,

All that i yearn for,

All that i'll ever want,

I found.

'Theres millions of people out there but in the end it all comes down to one... i still panic sometimes forget to breath but i know theres something beautilful in all my imperfection, a beauty which he held up for me to see. strength that can never be taken away.'

i've never been so shaken...

" i've never been so shaken.." thats her exact words after the realization of whats goin' on...

and thats the same thing i felt...

never been moved like that...

never been loved..

never been that open to all the possibilities...

of what might have happened if....

Excerpt: William Parish ~ Meet Joe Black

I know it's a cornball thing, but love is passion, obsession, something you can't live without. I say, fall head over heels, find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. How do you find him? Well, you forget your head and you listen to your heart. The truth is, there's no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love, well, you haven't lived a life at all. But you have to try, because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.
I found that love in you.

i will...

just remember...
no matter where you are...
how far you go...
or when you'll be back...
I love you...
through time i will love you...
through distance i will love you...

The Journey

"...your journey of finding the right one ends here

...it ends with me

...where forever begins for you and me

...the two of us

...together."

He said, She said....

He SAID:

...will my heart and my spirit......
my love ...my life ..be enough...
for its all i have to offer...
and she's all i ever wanted...i love you ...

She SAID:

He's enough to last me forever..
his love..his touch..
he's my now... and tomorrow...
I want nothing else but all that he could offer..
That is more than enough for me...
I love you.